Thankgiving

We were supposed to go to Enterprise and have Thanksgiving dinner with all the Bushars. Mom was ornery, Christy was ornery and mom really just didn't want to take baby David around all those people so we stayed home and had our own Thanksgiving. The only things missing were the turkey and cranberries. It turned out to be an ok day!

We are adjusting

Slowly but surely we are adjusting to live with a newborn in the house. It has been hard on everyone. Treyven is not sure what to think about his new brother. He gets mad that brother is using all of his blankets and is stealing all of moms time. If dad is home that is who Treyven would rather be with. He has tried a couple times to get to baby and sad to say has succeeded. He scratched brother pretty good on the back and he got a hold of him on moms bed and started pulling him towards himself. He doesn't understand that he needs to be soft. Poor guy gets told "no" a lot lately. Treyven has learned to climb up on the dinner chairs and then climb up on the table. Only bad part he hasn't figured out how to get off the table so if he gets up there when he's done he cries until you come get him down. Christy is having a hard time. She pretty much is left to take care of her responsibilities on her own and I think she is jealous. The other night she got in trouble and was sent to her room. About a half hour later I went in to check on her and she was gone and her window was wide open. It was almost an hour before she came home. She had walked to the golf course that is by our house. It scared the hell out of me. I really need to take some time and do something with just her and I. David and I are exhausted, we feel like there is not enough time in the day to get everything done. Treyven has needed so much dad time that David has fallen a little behind on homework. We are loving having our own house and a new baby! We live in a great ward and neighborhood. I look back and this house was meant for us. I didn't want it at first and even had the thought that maybe someone else would buy it or that something wouldn't go thru on our end with the loan or the house wouldn't pass inspection and we could back out but here we are and I am so grateful. We also have been reminded lately what great families we have. Mom was amazing last Thursday when she came to my rescue and cleaned up all the throw up and calmed me down! We have truly been blessed!!!

Today was a bad day

Today was a bad day and my personal journal is still in a box somewhere so I will write about my day here. For some reason my babies have issues with jaundice. Its so hard and gives me stress. Baby David is no different his was a little high when we were released from the hospital so we checked out with instructions to go in and have the test repeated. So imagine me loading the massive double stroller and two babies into the car, driving to the hospital, unloading the massive double stroller(that seems as tall as me and as heavy), fighting with said stroller to get it to unfold, then loading two babies into the stroller, going to the lab, hoping kind people or people who have pity on me will open doors for me, waiting in a exam room, holding my baby while his foot is poked and then squeezed for them to get enough blood, fighting with doors on the way out, unloading two babies from the stroller, then fighting with the stroller to get it folded down and back into the back of the car. I am exhausted at the end of this process and have absolutely no desire to venture out anywhere else as to limit this experience to once a day. So anyways David's bili levels have been rising. Yesterday we went to the pediatrician for his appointment. His weight has dropped, he is just barely above six pounds. David hardly eats, he rarely pees or poos and when I look at him I cry because he looks sick, and so tiny and so fragile. At his appointment I gave my consent for him to be given the Vitamin K shot, I didn't want him to have it but they refuse to circumcise him unless he's had the shot. I came home exhausted yesterday knowing that today would be yet another trip to the lab and another poke to David's heel. I went thru the whole process this afternoon and then waited for the call from the doctor to tell me what his levels were today. They are higher than yesterday. 19.1 which they consider critical. I started to cry :( I got the call while waiting to pick Christy up from the bus stop. When we got home I unloaded David first and brought him in the house and set his carseat down and then went out and got Treyven, as soon as I set Treyven down inside the house he started puking. It went all over him, all over me, all over the entry way and some got on David's car seat canopy. I lost it. I just sat down on the floor and started crying. I had met my match for the day. I called my mom and she came over to help me. Right before mom got here the guy from Intermountain Homecare arrived to set up the bilibed for David. Poor man, I was crying, Treyven was standing in his diaper by me with a worried look on his face and there was puke all over the entryway and a pile of clothes and blankets that had been puked on. He was so patient, but I'm sure he left thinking those poor kids stuck with that crazy lady. Mom was kind enough to clean up all the throw up and get all the clothes in the washer and to listen to me cry and complain. Now David is laying in his bilibed, Treyven is finally in bed (clean), Christy is in bed and David is doing homework. Having two babies has definitely been more of a challenge than I thought it would be. It's so very different and takes so much more from me. I need to buck up and get a schedule in place so that I am not so stressed out. It is a different experience having such a little baby as well. Both Christy and Treyven were bigger babies and had no problems with eating and they never looked so fragile. I think I am just over worried about baby David, I need to take a breath and maybe a long hot bath!! So that was my bad day.