Today has been a major mom fail day!

Lets just say that Christy is going thru some things right now. I spent a lot of time today at her school meeting with the school officer and the principal. I walked away from her school today feeling like a failure. I had to take her to Papa's office as she was suspended from school for today and Tuesday and Wednesday she will do in school suspension. I feel like I have not taught her anything that she needs to know. I hate what she is having to go thru and the effect that this event will have on the rest of her life and the bad part is I wonder how much of all this she really comprehends. I was sick about the whole situation all day today. Where did I go wrong and how do I fix it so that my boys will know and choose the right so that this will not be a trail that they or me will have to go thru.
Oh and at our house we throw dishes away if we don't want to wash them!

Random Happenings

And there you have it! OUr life lately in pictures. I Instagram more than I blog. I need to find out how to print out all my Instagram posts and put them in a little book. We are always busy, always on the go. Life just keeps going and I don't make time to blog. David is still in school. He is going to on ground classes now so the boys have to go to a sitter. We couldn't find anyone who was willing to come to our home. Hopefully a babysitter will not be a long term thing. Rebecca is still working at the doctors office (always have, always will). Most days she is grateful for her job and the benefits. Christy is halfway thru seventh grade and Shadow thru fifth grade. Treyven is almost two and a half and David is thirteen months. Mom is loving all the snow that came with the storm a week ago. It makes it feel more like Christmas. The kitchen is almost done and we finally painted the stripe in the dining room. I think our big project for next year is to take out the dog run in the backyard and get a little shed. Maybe also repainting another room inside. We are not sure how much money we want to pour into this home. Neither David or I want this to be "our" home. You know the one that your family grows up in and you live in for the rest of your grown up life. Don't get me wrong we are grateful for this home we just don't see spending the rest of our life here. We really would love for David to finish school and get an amazing job somewhere other than Utah and move, but we will see. Whatever the Lord wants :)

Boys, Boys, Boys

Night time is torture around here. Last night I put the boys to bed just after seven. They share a room. David in the crib and Treyven on the bottom bunk. We have had to push the couch in front of their bedroom door lately because Treyven just comes on out. Last night the boys played for TWO hours. Finally a little after nine thirty I decided enough was enough. Treyven turns their light on and then him and David play. Treyven goes in the closet and plays with toys in there. Him and David were having a grand old time. I went into their room moved Treyven's mattress to the top bunk and then I turned the lights out and shut the door. I went in about twenty minutes later to check on them and Treyven says "peease get me down". It was so cute, but I left him up there. He didn't fall off once last night and I didn't have to block the door after I put him on the top bunk. And even better now he can't come in our room and try to get in bed with us.

Sunday

Sunday's are hard for me. They always have been. I know that the church is true but it is so hard for me to attend church every Sunday. Today was a trial. I woke both girls up at eight. On hopped in the shower and one ate breakfast then they swapped. At 8:24 I told them both they had two hours to brush their teeth and so their hair. TWO hours. I left them to their vices. I showered and then bathed the boys and got me and the boys ready. At 10:21 I walked past the hall bathroom and one girl was still in the bathroom with her hair not done. I lost it, what the heck had she been doing for two hours in the bathroom. I told her she had ten minutes. I still had not brushed my teeth or put makeup on at this point. I went in my bathroom to finish getting myself ready when I thought what the heck if I don't do her hair it will look the same as it does now in church. I have been trying to teach the girls that on Sunday we need to make an effort we need to try harder. It's not getting thru. So I went in and did her hair. I curled it all then twisted and bobby pinned. Then look at the clock and realize that at this point we have twenty one minutes till church starts, thats plenty of time you might say but not for me. I brushed my teeth put on my make up grabbed a sweater then got the diaper bag ready. By the time we got in the car it was after 11. Church starts at 11. Then I put the key in and turn it and guess what????? We are out of GAS!!!!!! David works at a gas station, how the HELL are we out of gas?????? I was mad, I said some unkind words to David and he drove his car to the gas station to fill the gas can. Now you might ask why would they not just take David's car to church or walk? I tried walking I was to mad to walk all the way to church. It's only about a mile and a quarter and if I was walking alone and mad that would be nothing. But pushing the stroller with Treyven whining in his seat was not happening. By the time we got to Sacrament meeting the Primary Program had already started. We always sit in the back so in biggie. Treyven was horrible today. At one point David got up to use the restroom and Treyven was in my lap screaming. And of course every Tom, Dick and Sally has to turn their head around and see who's kid is making a fuss and then give me the mother a dirty look as if to say "why can't you shut your kid up", normally I ignore all these looks. Today I couldn't! Lets just say the people sitting in front of me will most likely steer clear of me anytime they see me coming! I took both boys out for a minute mad as hell and ready to go home when I decided "no, those people can just accept the fact that my kid is noisy and I am trying to teach him the importance of attending Sacrament meeting" so back in we went. I had David bring me and the babes home after Sacrament meeting. One meeting was all I could handle today. I don't really like putting myself in situations where I am made to feel smaller than others. I try so hard I really do. I know that the church is true but I at this point in my life cannot handle the way I feel about myself when I am at church. I am really struggling to find my place in my own life these days.  I want to be able to make enough money so that David can stay home with the boys during the day and not have to work at a job that he doesn't like and where he never gets any sleep and then during the day he has trouble focusing on the boys because he is so tired. I know that I am not a stay at home mom type of person. I need to work it helps me feel better about myself. I have no relationship with my daughters. Christy has been in Young Womens since June and not once have I sit down and talked to her about personal progress or ask her about her Tuesday night activities. I really dislike when Shadow is at our house because of my issues. I would rather David take care of all the boys needs. I am very selfish and that is one of the reasons that I don't want to be a stay at home mom. I dislike that we bought this crappy house. Even when it's clean it feels so dirty because its old and crappy. Anyways today is a very bad, no good, horrible day. I need a nap and then maybe I will be more positive. MAYBE!

catch up...again

Once again I have let me blogging go. Life is just to fun to stop and blog. I will try soon to take some time and add some pictures and give more info into our lives. David is still in school. He has 13 classes left before he gets his Bachelors degree in Graphic Design. :) I can't wait till he is out of school. David got a new job. The end of July David got hired on at Maverik. He works mostly late night, early morning shifts. It's been good for him to have a job again. I am still working at the doctors office. Always have, always will :) I am the assistant manager. I get paid a little extra whenever Nicole is not in the office. I would love to work less, maybe someday. We are slowly remodeling our house. The kitchen has been torn apart for two or three months. I can't wait till we have our kitchen back. I have also started running. I started running on June 27. I ran a mile in 14 and 1/2 minutes. Since then I have kept running and have been increasing my distances. I run at least five days a week and my average for a mile is just over 10 minutes and I am up to two miles in one run. I am so proud of myself. Christy is in 7th grade and she is doing great in school. Shadow is in 5th grade. The boys are growing like crazy. Treyven is two and is into everything and always on the go. He is going thru the terrible two's. David is 10 months and he is the sweetest baby ever. He only fusses when he is poppy, hungry or tired. He still spits up quite a bit. He can crawl like a champ and he pulls himself up on everything and will walk if you hold onto both of his hands. He doesn't seem to have anymore side effects from his hypotonia. And thats just a quick update. Soon I will do a post with pictures.

I always said..

that I would not be one of those moms that would let her kids sleep in her bed on a routine basis. Lately Treyven has been coming into our room and climbing into bed with us. It doesn't seem to wake David up but Treyven likes to climb over me. And he doesn't just climb in bed and go back to sleep he has to get in sleep for a little bit then go get his blankets then climb back in sleep for a while then get back up. Each time up over mom. I don't get much sleep these days. I told David that whenever he comes in we need to take him back to bed but I am to lazy to get out of my nice warm, comfy bed and take him back to his bed. We are thinking about buying those things that you put on the door handles to make it so he can't open them. We really need one for the outside doors. The other day the doorbell rang and it was our neighbor with Treyven, he had went out the front door to go play and neither David or I noticed. It was so embarrassing.

Lets play catch up.

 David and I went to Mesquite on our monthly date. We ate at the buffet and then went to the arcade and played. We brought home a bunch of junk for Treyven. It was one of the best dates that David and I have had in quite a while.

 Dad and Treyven reading.

 Our roses in the front yard.

Mom and her boys.

David is still in school at Steven's Henegar and makes the Deans list almost every quarter. He is still working at Steamroller although without any word to him they have cut him from five five hour shifts a week to one four hour shift per week. That isn't even enough for him to pay his child support. David is trying to find a different job. Mom is still working full time at the doctor's office and loving it (most days). She is hoping that soon they will make it official that she is the assistant manger and she will get a raise. That would really help our finances about now. Mom likes to spend time out in the yard pulling weeds and checking on all our plants and flowers and trees. We have six rose bushes in the front yard and we have planted spinach, peas, tomatoes, onions, carrots and watermelon, two grape bushes, one raspberry and one blackberry bush. We also have two apricot trees and two peach tress. There are still two fruits trees that we don't know what kind they are yet. We finished painting the big bedroom in the back and moved the boys into that room. Treyven sleeps on the bottom bunk and David is finally in the crib sleeping thru the night. David can roll over and sit by himself. Treyven gets into everything and is ornery often. We had family pictures a few weeks ago but haven't gotten them back yet. Hopefully soon. School is almost out for Christy and then she has lots of plans for the summer. Girls camp, a trip to North Dakota, a family reunion and hopefully a trip to Amber's house. We are trying to redo the back front bedroom for Christy. We realized that underneath two layers of paint there are two layers of wallpaper that must all be removed before we can re-paint and decorate. It's a slow going process. Well I think thats all for now.

So far behind on blogging

In February we travelled to Oklahoma for Buddy's baptism. We left home early Thursday morning. We travelled to Albuquerque, NM where we spent the night. Then early Friday morning we got up and drove the rest of the way to Amber's house. We had a really big surprise for Amber, we brought the mom with us. Amber and mom were both crying and then I cried. It was so great to see Amber and her family. We had a great time in Oklahoma. We went shopping, sight seeing, date night, Buddy's baptism,  and Stake conference. It was a really great visit but it was to short. It was great for Amber to meet David and for us to be there and support Buddy at his baptism.

 Somewhere along the way to Amber's

 All but David's first time to Texas.

 At Buddy's baptism.

Rebecca, Itty Bitty, David, Treyven, Momma, Christy, Amber, Danni, Keith, Buddy, Kenneth and the Devol family.

 The big red round barn on Route 66.

 Bricktown in Oklahoma City

 We blessed baby David on March 3, 2013. Here's dad and itty bitty after.

On Monday March 18th, 2013 I went to Overton with a few of my family members to my cousin Bryan's funeral. That day was his 28th birthday. He was killed a week earlier in Minnesota where he was living. The funeral was very hard. It was so very emotional. It also brought into perspective our many blessings and things that I need to change to align my life more with Christ. After the funeral we stopped at my Aunt Pauline's house and I took a picture of two of my cousins in there military duds. Bryan was in the Army. It was great to see so many family members.
When we took David to his four month appointment Dr. Walker was concerned with his head and his lack of muscle tone. She referred David to physical therapy for Hypotonia and to get his head evaluated and see if he needs a helmet. We are hoping that his Hypotonia will be improved with therapy and will not be a result of something worse like Muscle Dystrophy. His first therapy appointment is on April 1st.
Things are so busy all the time. David is still working at Steamroller part time and doing school online. He keeps busy between these two things. Mom is working very hard at the doctors office with two big projects going on. She comes home and crashes. Christy is going to school and goes to an after school program two days a week. Treyven is growing and learning daily, same with David. We are getting ready to redo a couple rooms in our house. We are going to move the boys into the back bedroom together and move Christy into the boys room and make the green bedroom the guestroom. We have been doing a lot of work out in the yard. We planted a bunch of things in the garden. It's nice to be able to go out and work in the yard. We love that the weather has changed so we can spend more time outside.

Look how the boys are growing!

Treyven is now 18 months old. He gets into everything. He is smart as a cookie and the sweetest little guy around. One night mom had had a particularly hard day, while putting Treyven to bed mom asked for a kiss after giving dad a couple kisses and mom begging for hers he gave in. It was a good kiss to, not open mouth and slobbery. Then mom asked for a hug. Treyven wrapped his arms around mom and patted her back. This brought tears to moms eyes. It's so good to have such a sweet moment with her son to end a hard day.

 David is three months old. He is such a happy baby and has finally started sleeping thru the night.

He gives big smiles and lots of happy coos.

Mom and dad have decided that IF they have another baby it will most definitely not be for at least two years and maybe not even then. As David grows out of things they will be either given away or sold. We will not be storing a whole bunch of baby stuff that may never get used again. Of course there are a few special items that will be kept :) Our family is working hard at school and at jobs. We are looking forward to going to Oklahoma for Buddy's baptism and we can't wait for warmer weather so we can start doing outdoor activities.

Christmas and a New Year

 The Tree!

 The stockings!

Next year we hope to have matching ones.

 Christy with her loot.

 Shadow with her loot.

We had a great Christmas this year. The three big kids got legos. Dad and the boys got matching ties. I think overall everyone got what they wanted. We spent New Years eve at Alisha's house eating and playing games. We were all in bed before midnight though. All the kids are growing and getting smarter. David is now 11 weeks old. Treyven is almost old enough for nursery :) The cold has been rampant in our house. All our schedules seem to have returned to normal. We are looking forward to next month when we get to go to Oklahoma and see the Waddells. We spent last weekend in pine Valley at the cabin. We are always on the go. I need to blog more often so that I remember all the things that happen.