Christmas is coming!

I am the luckiest mom! Look at my two handsome boys!

Life seems to be so busy all the time. On Thursday the 13th David had his work Christmas party. We had Crystal come over to babysit. It was the first time that both David and I had been away from the baby at the same time. David's party was at the Pizza Factory. We ate yummy food and then there was a white elephant gift exchange. Our gift was a picture frame. On Monday the 17th I went back to work. It was so hard to leave my boys that morning. I will admit that there were some tears shed. We have a good babysitter that comes to the house to watch the boys. Her name is Hettie. Monday evening was my work party. It was at the Anasazi Steakhouse. We took David with us. We ate meat cooked on individual hotrocks and there was a gift exchange. We ended up with some baby stuff! Last night we went to a neighborhood Christmas party. We had dinner then they played the movie "Scrooge" then there was dessert. Baby and I left early. I had a headache and baby was hungry. We still are not ready for Christmas. A few gifts will need to be bought tomorrow. 

Christmas Partied out!

This past week on Wednesday the 5th we went to mom and dads ward Christmas party then on the 7th we went to our wards. Mom's was kinda crazy. They had some weird puppets and some young girls had the really strange puppet doll thing that they were "hiding" in. There was lots of yummy food at both parties. Then after our ward party we went to the cabin for the rest of the weekend. It was so nice to get away and relax. Saturday we slept in until 10. So nice. I am enjoying my last week home with my boys. Monday I have to go back to work :(

 Treyven and dad watching the puppet show.

 Treyven with Santa

 Even Crystal got to sit on Santa's lap :) She told me I couldn't post this on facebook but she didn't say anything about my blog!

 Mom and the little guy!

The girls with Santa.

Busy, busy, busy

Live seems to be speeding by. David has been busy at work and busy with school. Mom is enjoying her time at home with her boys. This past Sunday we went to the cabin for the Bushar family Christmas party. There was a white elephant gift exchange and David ended up with the underwear that he is so tastefully displaying in the picture below. Mom came away with a Christmas mug. Little David is still not eating and gaining weight like he should. He is growing though. We just put up our Christmas tree. I guess now we need to start buying some gifts for the kids.

Thankgiving

We were supposed to go to Enterprise and have Thanksgiving dinner with all the Bushars. Mom was ornery, Christy was ornery and mom really just didn't want to take baby David around all those people so we stayed home and had our own Thanksgiving. The only things missing were the turkey and cranberries. It turned out to be an ok day!

We are adjusting

Slowly but surely we are adjusting to live with a newborn in the house. It has been hard on everyone. Treyven is not sure what to think about his new brother. He gets mad that brother is using all of his blankets and is stealing all of moms time. If dad is home that is who Treyven would rather be with. He has tried a couple times to get to baby and sad to say has succeeded. He scratched brother pretty good on the back and he got a hold of him on moms bed and started pulling him towards himself. He doesn't understand that he needs to be soft. Poor guy gets told "no" a lot lately. Treyven has learned to climb up on the dinner chairs and then climb up on the table. Only bad part he hasn't figured out how to get off the table so if he gets up there when he's done he cries until you come get him down. Christy is having a hard time. She pretty much is left to take care of her responsibilities on her own and I think she is jealous. The other night she got in trouble and was sent to her room. About a half hour later I went in to check on her and she was gone and her window was wide open. It was almost an hour before she came home. She had walked to the golf course that is by our house. It scared the hell out of me. I really need to take some time and do something with just her and I. David and I are exhausted, we feel like there is not enough time in the day to get everything done. Treyven has needed so much dad time that David has fallen a little behind on homework. We are loving having our own house and a new baby! We live in a great ward and neighborhood. I look back and this house was meant for us. I didn't want it at first and even had the thought that maybe someone else would buy it or that something wouldn't go thru on our end with the loan or the house wouldn't pass inspection and we could back out but here we are and I am so grateful. We also have been reminded lately what great families we have. Mom was amazing last Thursday when she came to my rescue and cleaned up all the throw up and calmed me down! We have truly been blessed!!!

Today was a bad day

Today was a bad day and my personal journal is still in a box somewhere so I will write about my day here. For some reason my babies have issues with jaundice. Its so hard and gives me stress. Baby David is no different his was a little high when we were released from the hospital so we checked out with instructions to go in and have the test repeated. So imagine me loading the massive double stroller and two babies into the car, driving to the hospital, unloading the massive double stroller(that seems as tall as me and as heavy), fighting with said stroller to get it to unfold, then loading two babies into the stroller, going to the lab, hoping kind people or people who have pity on me will open doors for me, waiting in a exam room, holding my baby while his foot is poked and then squeezed for them to get enough blood, fighting with doors on the way out, unloading two babies from the stroller, then fighting with the stroller to get it folded down and back into the back of the car. I am exhausted at the end of this process and have absolutely no desire to venture out anywhere else as to limit this experience to once a day. So anyways David's bili levels have been rising. Yesterday we went to the pediatrician for his appointment. His weight has dropped, he is just barely above six pounds. David hardly eats, he rarely pees or poos and when I look at him I cry because he looks sick, and so tiny and so fragile. At his appointment I gave my consent for him to be given the Vitamin K shot, I didn't want him to have it but they refuse to circumcise him unless he's had the shot. I came home exhausted yesterday knowing that today would be yet another trip to the lab and another poke to David's heel. I went thru the whole process this afternoon and then waited for the call from the doctor to tell me what his levels were today. They are higher than yesterday. 19.1 which they consider critical. I started to cry :( I got the call while waiting to pick Christy up from the bus stop. When we got home I unloaded David first and brought him in the house and set his carseat down and then went out and got Treyven, as soon as I set Treyven down inside the house he started puking. It went all over him, all over me, all over the entry way and some got on David's car seat canopy. I lost it. I just sat down on the floor and started crying. I had met my match for the day. I called my mom and she came over to help me. Right before mom got here the guy from Intermountain Homecare arrived to set up the bilibed for David. Poor man, I was crying, Treyven was standing in his diaper by me with a worried look on his face and there was puke all over the entryway and a pile of clothes and blankets that had been puked on. He was so patient, but I'm sure he left thinking those poor kids stuck with that crazy lady. Mom was kind enough to clean up all the throw up and get all the clothes in the washer and to listen to me cry and complain. Now David is laying in his bilibed, Treyven is finally in bed (clean), Christy is in bed and David is doing homework. Having two babies has definitely been more of a challenge than I thought it would be. It's so very different and takes so much more from me. I need to buck up and get a schedule in place so that I am not so stressed out. It is a different experience having such a little baby as well. Both Christy and Treyven were bigger babies and had no problems with eating and they never looked so fragile. I think I am just over worried about baby David, I need to take a breath and maybe a long hot bath!! So that was my bad day.

I really need to update my blog more often. I have procrastinated so much and just felt I was to busy to keep on top of it. Well now I am even busier but it needs done. My goal will be one post a week. Not sure if that will happen or not. Maybe one of the evenings that David works late I will have some time to sit down and blog. Here is a quick run down of our life's right now.

David: is going to online school full time as well as working somewhere between part time and full time for Steamroller Copies.

Rebecca: is now working full time at the doctors office and is 6 months pregnant with little Bushar boy number 2.

Christy: just started sixth grade, and is starting to be really moody (I'm being honest).

Shadow: just started fourth grade.

Treyven: is 13 months old, he gets into EVERYTHING, he is a really good and happy baby. He loves to bring his books to David or I and have us read to him. He is also starting to climb. He has 12 teeth. He is our little monster.

Littlest Bushar boy: is a mover just like his siblings. He goes crazy when Treyven sits on my lap and he goes still when David tries to feel him. I am praying that when the time comes the delivery will be quick like with Treyven and that he will not be born on Thanksgiving. We are looking forward to having another little boy in our house, but we try not to think about it to much as it is kind of overwhelming to imaging what it will be like with two babies in our house. Defiantly a new experience for both David and I.

The family: we put an offer in on a home in Bloomington Hills. If all goes well we are planning on closing in about 45 days. We really need a bigger place than where we are renting now. The home has four bedrooms, an office and two bathrooms. It's a fairly large home and lot.

I guess that's all for my quick update. More later :)

My Sunday

I am so far behind in blogging but all that will have to wait. Today during Sacrament meeting as I was sitting in my usual seat in the foyer I starting thinking about things and I got a little overwhelmed. There seems to be so much going on right now and as I know that no one reads this blog I can post about things and not worry about them getting out. Since we have been back to St. George I have felt like we have been struggling financially, I know everyone does so why am I complaining? This is my pity post so complain away I go, if you don't like it you don't have to read it. I HATE being poor!!! With David in school and me only working part time we have struggled a bit. Then all of David's school stuff adds on top of being poor. David went to one semester at Dixie State and now is transferring to Steven's Henegar, why? Because they will accept more credits from Coleman University. Dixie wouldn't take any. So we had to go thru the whole shebang of David transferring to another school again, good thing...no break between classes so no break in our housing money from the GI Bill. Then there is my job, there is so much drama that goes on. Some days I am glad that I only work part time and I am kind of oblivious to everyone else's problems. Some days I feel like I really should go full time so that we can have health benefits but then I think about how much I disliked Christy growing up in daycare and being home with Treyven two days a week out weighs working for benefits. Then there's Treyven. I love the little man more than anything in the whole world, some days I just feel like I need a break, those times are mostly on Sundays when we are getting dirty looks because Treyven is fussing. I wonder why on Earth I ever wanted two babies close together. I have a hard time taking care of Treyven adequately (sometimes I feel like the worst mother on Earth) how am I going to be able to take care of two children under two? I guess David and I will both have permanent seats in the foyer on Sunday's. Then there's Christy. We seem to have reverted backwards with her. Some days David has to step in and do all the parenting because she gets me so riled up. We are so much alike and we butt heads on so many things, good things she's almost a teenager huh? She might have to stay locked in her room when she starts having her monthly cycle. She really is a good girl, we are just having a moment. Next on the list...buying a house. Didn't I just post about being poor? One of the many blessings from David being in the Military is that we can apply for a VA loan, which means no down payment, no monthly mortgage fees and some other good things. It also means that poor people like us can qualify for a small loan. The loan is so small that all the houses that we qualify for are being bought as soon as they go on the market. And the homes are also not of the best quality and more likely than not will need some form of work. Which in normal situations wouldn't be a big deal David and I are both able bodied adults, but in my situation the amount of work I can do is limited, and I don't want to move into a house that I don't think is fit for my babies, and I have some pretty high standards, and yes I know that pride is of the devil....shoot me now. I am frustrated that I was so prideful that we bought that Pilot, I now wish I had listened to others and bought a van. A van would be a much better fit for our growing family, but no, I had to have a Pilot and one that we couldn't really afford to buy on our own. Good thing I know a pretty generous bank....love you mom and dad and thanks for indulging me.

So what have I covered: being POOR, David's school, my job, Christy, Treyven, two babies, house hunting, my pride, and our Pilot, whats left?

My dirty house. I have no energy, I am constantly tired, I have had the same headache for almost twelve weeks, I am nauseous most of the time, so my house is a complete wreck. I wish we could afford to have a maid service come over and deep clean my house.

Bills, they seem overwhelming. Someone in the Navy screwed up and calculated David's last pay check wrong so we owe the Military almost five hundred dollars. Then since we have no health insurance but one in my situation must seek medical treatment we now have medical bills, not to mention a monthly bill for a pre-natel vitamin that costs more than we spend on groceries in one month.

Then there are the usual complaints: I feel fat, I am not proud of the way I look, I wish we had more money, oh here's another complaint. A certain person refused to co-operate with David so tomorrow he must drive to Vegas to attend family court so his child support can go down and he can see his daughter more. This whole situation that was started in December could have been solved months ago but stubborn pride (not on my part) got in the way. I hope the judge socks it to you, just sayin! Oh and once again David and I are starting the process to get his sealing cancelled so that he and I can be sealed, hopefully before November. Here's the kicker, remember all the house stuff? If we end up buying a house and moving we will have to start over from square one. I am ready for David and I to be sealed. I don't want our second child to be born not under the covenant. I want our family to be an eternal family.

I think I covered all my concerns. Once in awhile everyone is allowed to have one of these days, right? There are many things that I am grateful for as well. I know that things could be so much worse. The Lord has truly blessed our family. We are all healthy (with the exception of my present situation needing medical attention, but I'm still healthy), we have the financial means to support ourselves. We have a roof over our heads and two running vehicles, David and I both have part time jobs. We are not having to pay for Davids school, we are members of the true church here on the Earth. We live close to most of our family members and know that that is a huge support system. Heavenly Father has blessed up with fulfilling our covenant to multiply and replenish the earth. There are to many blessings to name each one. It feels better to write down my concerns to get them off my chest so that I can move forward. I also know that we are given no trials that we can not over come if we just remember to lean on the Lord and do our part.

December was a great month. The Waddell's came to Utah!!! If you can't tell I was so excited, it seems like it has been forever since I last saw my favorite sister. We spent a lot of time with them. We had a great Christmas and New Years. We loved spending so much time with family and friends. David has started school again. He is going to Dixie. We have a new babysitter for Treyven. Work is going great for both Rebecca and David. Christy is doing well in school and Treyven just keeps growing. He now sits up all by himself and he sleeps thru the night :) Enjoy the pictures.

My beautiful sister Amber holding keith and Treyven. Keith is six months older than Treyven but only a couple inches taller, and the boys have the same size of feet.

Christy was totally spoiled for Christmas. Most of what you see here in this picture is from Grandma Cosgrove and Christy's dad (we buy gifts that we think he would have bought her if he were here). She got tons of new clothes, new shoes and boots, new books and a beautiful framed picture of the Savior for her bedroom.

Here is Shadow with her gifts. New clothes, and books and a picture of the Savior for her room.

We had family pictures taken the day after Christmas. All 29 members of the family were together. It has been a long time since that has happened.

The Waddell family.

We sure love them and wish that our two families lived closer together.

Dont' you think they need a little girl to change things up? I do!

Our cute little family.

All 29 of us out of the playground. Thanks to Kellee for putting up with us and getting some really good shots!

Playing at the park.

Playing at Pioneer park.

Dad and Treyven at church in their matching ties.

We have a "GREAT" ward....umm I am being sarcastic here.

Two Sundays ago we had a speaker that got up and talked about all the rules they had in their home when her children were growing up. It was a two page list of rules. Here are some examples: Phone calls between 8am and 9pm are limited to five minutes, no babysitting, no sleepovers, live the Word of Wisdom plus, mandatory 24 hour fast once a month, no food in Sacrament meeting, no TV, only group dating till 18 then only double dating till married. THe list went on and on. After her talk we sang a rest hymn and then the husband got up to give his talk. As he was starting his talk a lady from the congregation got up and gathered her stuff and then stopped right in front of the Bishop and started yelling at him about how it was on his head that people were offended by the talk and how could he let that talk be given and so on. It was really awkward. Everyone was silent, finally the lady left and following her out the door was the speaker and two other gentlemen. David was out in the foyer with Treyven and heard the lady yelling at the speaker. It was great fun. Then last Sunday in Sacrament meeting Treyven was making a few cooing noises during the passing of the Sacrament, at the very end when the men are going back up to the front to turn in the water trays Treyven starting fussing. As David was gathering up Treyven and his binkie and blanket to take him out the guy in front of us turned around and said "you need to take your baby out". I was mad, it's not like we let Treyven just stay in the chapel and cry. As soon as he starts to fuss we take him out. After the men had taken their seats I went out to the foyer and told David to go back in the chapel and that I would enjoy the rest of the meeting in the foyer. Sunday school is full of the elderly couples and there were no seats os I sat in the foyer during Sunday school. I went into Relief Society but after a few minutes of being in there Treyven fell over and started to cry and a bunch of the elderly women turned around and glared at me so I took him back to the foyer and there we sat for the rest of church. I have really tried to be patient and to like our ward here but it just hasn't happened. I really miss our ward in San Diego. Anyways, we are all healthy and for the most part happy, and just taking things day by day.